In My Little Corner of the World

I know most of us, if not all of us, rally round and think about all that we are thankful for as Thanksgiving approaches.  Somehow this year, considering all that I am blessed with has left a kind of darkness in me, knowing much of the world has not a tiny, tiny fraction of my blessings...blessings that are so easy to take for granted in a life overflowing with blessings.

I hope that I can keep in the forefront of my mind, on all the days to come, those for whom a blessing might be something as small as a crust of bread.  I know keeping all those destitute people, people living in war zones, people who must watch their children starve, in my mind and in my heart is so little in the scope of the world, but I do think it matters.  It matters for us to keep those who are less fortunate, deep within ourselves...in our hearts, our minds and in our prayers.  It matters.

My little corner

of the world

has no rubble,

no debris strewn streets,

no women buried to the neck

and stoned.

My corner of the world

has no daily strife,

no search for morsels

among the refuse,

no stench of stray bodily fluids

lingering in the air.

My small corner 

of the world

has no machete wielding

rebels,

no stray bullets piercing 

random bodies,

no children falling

senseless victims.

In my corner of the world

there is an enormous

absence

of the dark,

the dirty,

the broken,

an enormous absence

of bitter violence

of discord

of struggle

and I ask

why me?

I am thankful...

thankful my life is 

so blessed

yet, it seems I am not thankful enough,

not in quantity

nor in frequency,

not enough anyway

to balance

a world,

away from my sacred corner,

that is consumed by hatred,

war,

hunger,

homelessness,

grief,

abuse,

violence...

I wish my thankfulness

had power...

I wish it made me huge...

I wish

I could heal the world

with my gratitude.

Joanne Adragna Shird

November 19,2012

May everyone find the blessings in their life!

I am thankful!

MY BIRTHDAY CAKE

I am a food fanatic, and love cookbooks and cooking magazines.  I subscribe to several cooking magazines (however as this isn't especially eco-friendly, I am a bit ashamed).  One of my favorites being Cooks Illustrated.  I do not subscribe to Cooks Country, however I do get that from the library at each new issue.

As I was reading the latest issue of that magazine, I saw a recipe for a cake that not only looked good, but seemed magical as well. (Now I do believe that there is something essentially magical in all phases of food...but magical in the sense of holy.  This was magical in the sense mystery and abracadabra.)  After reading that recipe, (Magic Chocolate Flan Cake) I decided I'd like to make my own birthday cake this year (that was yesterday) and that this was the cake I'd like to make.

Read on and you will see what I mean.

Start with a bundt pan that you are sure holds 12 cups.  Warm up some caramel sauce, preferably homemade, and place 1/2 cup in the well greased pan.

In a small bowl put 1/2 c. plus 2 tbs. flour, 1/3 c. cocoa, 1/2 tsp. baking soda and a pinch of salt.  Whisk until mixed and set aside.

In another bowl whisk 1/2 c. buttermilk, 1/2 c. sugar, 2 large eggs, and 1 tsp. vanilla, and set aside.

Place 6 tbs. of unsalted butter in a medium pan, add 4 oz. of bittersweet chocolate, and gently heat until melted, let cool slightly then whisk the buttermilk mixture into this melted chocolate mixture.

Stir in the flour mixture, and pour this batter over the caramel in the bundt pan.

And now for the Flan part of this recipe....

Place 2 (14 oz.) cans sweetened condensed milk, 2 1/2 c. whole milk, 6 oz. cream cheese, 6 large eggs, and 4 large yolks and 1 tsp. vanilla in a blender and process until smooth.

Gently pour this over the cake batter in the bundt pan and cover the pan tightly with tin foil.  

Place the pan in a large roaster, fill it with water to about half way, and bake in a preheated 350 degree oven for 1 1/2-2 hours.  Check by inserting a tooth pick, which should come out with a few crumbs sticking to it.

Remove from oven and let cool 15 minutes.  Remove the tin foil and let cool for one hour.  Invert on a plate....

and here is this lovely cake.....and for the magic, well, mysteriously, though I am sure it is scientifically explainable, during the baking, the chocolate cake and the flan magically trade places.  Remember, caramel sauce, chocolate cake, and then flan went into the pan, so when inverted it should be caramel, chocolate cake and flan, but as you can see, the flan is now directly beneath the caramel sauce... intriguing isn't it?

Refrigerate for at least 4 hours before cutting.

(This cake weighed in at 7 #s.)

This definitely is a rich cake, but we managed to each have two pieces. 

It is kind of simple looking, but it is surely one of the most delicious cakes I have ever eaten!!!  The chocolate is dense and moist, the flan is quite heavenly, and the caramel sauce a great topping.  

This isn't an everyday cake, and it is expensive to make, but it is well worth the work...as we all can attest to directly after the first aromatic mouthful.  

A NEW BIRTH

I have had, for many years, a very large collection of old 100% wool blankets. I buy them up where ever I see them, thrift stores, rummage sales and Goodwill.  They used to be quite inexpensive, however, they are quite costly now.  Still, when I see one I like, especially if it is in a color I do not have, I scoop it up.   

Generally I cut them into one inch strips and use them to weave sturdy wool rugs.  However, a couple of years ago, this huge collection of blankets piled  in  my workshop kept calling to me, sometimes in strange ways.  Quite honestly, it seemed like something was trapped in there.  It was from this feeling that the Woolies were born.

I have made around 30 of these 'creatures',

 

including this one, named Jackie, because through no effort of mine, she just ended up looking like my sister (and the one peeking beside her named Rufus).

At the present I have a friend who is not feeling particularly well, and I decided to liberate a Woolie in her name.  She is fun-filled woman, who loves life and color...lots of color.  She is about as unselfconscious a person as I have ever known.  She can always be counted on to adorn herself in the funkiest of outfits, and she wears them so very well.  She is a strong, warrior of a woman, who while not feeling her best, I thought could use a little boost.

....and Patti was born....

Now this is the back of the Woolie named Patti, embellished with recycled silk ties,  felted wool, and an odd button or two.

...and this, ladies and gentlemen, is Patti!! 

Oh, she made me smile while creating her, and she is filled with lots and lots of love, as well as lavender flowers and wool from my daughter's sheep.

I hope she brings my friend warmth, love and some laughter during this trying time.

MY MOTHER

Were my mother still alive, today would be her birthday. 

This is a photo taken the last time my mother was able to visit me.  It was a precious time as after that, she became ill, and never recovered.

Several years ago, I wrote a small book of poems entitled, WOMAN KIN TO WOMAN KIN: A Story of Generations

In that booklet I wrote a poem for each of the woman on my mother's side of the family that have/had meant so much to me in both my growing up years, and today as well.  Here is the poem from that booklet, to my mother:

My Mother

Everyday just as we passed Gugino's driveway

I'd look back.

Standing at the window

curtains parted

she stood sentry over us.

We'd walk two houses farther before I'd glance again

and still she hadn't moved.

I'd  walk and look

walk and look

and she never went away,

even when I turned the corner

and could no longer see our house

I could sense her watching over us.

All the years we walked the mile to school

I never got so far

that I didn't feel her loving

and protecting me.

Even to this day

across this stretch of nation

across this stretch of years

she is just around the corner

and I can feel her mother-eyes

upon me.

She is the vessel

that funneled me full,

pushed me beyond all boundaries,

bringing me into being...

bringing me all creation.

Mother, I am moved by the sacred sound

resounding in our blood.

What I am fits

glove-like over you.

Just beneath my skin

you lie

always nestled in me

my protector and my strength.

Inwardly and onion-like

all the women of our past

layer far into the core.

Infinitely deep

we sing our godsong,

our womansong,

eternity rings forth 

upon our breath

and we endure

we endure. 

I am glad I was moved to write this 'family song' before she became ill.  I am glad that I was able to tell my mother of  my deep love and how much I cherished her.  To this day, across this stretch of time and death, she is just around the corner, and I can feel her mother-eyes upon me...my protector and my strength.

 

 

SUNDAY RESPITE

I have been spending much time in the kitchen preparing for the Lawton Memorial Library fundraiser dinner, which was last Saturday evening, and a resounding success despite misgivings about getting it all done, and preparing for the Friends of the Kickapoo Reserve Appreciation Dinner this coming Saturday evening.  When I say spending much time in the kitchen, if you multiplied that by several, it might come close.  Now, don't get me wrong, there is hardly a place I'd rather be, except perhaps outdoors.  

But still, it felt wonderful to take Sunday off, or at least the afternoon, and go for a hike with friends on the reserve.  We hiked below the Billings Creek trail on the way in, stopped after an hour or so, had a picnic with terrific food and wine, and resumed the hike.  We returned on the Billings Creek Trail.

As usual, Freddie led the hike, and his skill at this is unsurpassed!!  

We had a wonderful time, the weather was superb, sunny and warm, and the rock outcroppings, as usual, stunning.  I never seem to tire of hiking on the Reserve, everywhere you look, is a scene that tops the last.  We are so lucky to live in this area, to be healthy enough to hike these hills, and to have good friends with which to do these things.

Hopefully I will soon post about these dinners that have consumed my days.

Autumn Odds and Ends

The lovely part of Autumn is slowly slipping away.  Yesterday Freddie and I took a hike on our (207 acre) property.  It is beautiful, located here along Jug Creek amid the tree-covered hills.  Still, most of the trees have lost their leaves, except for the oaks, that is.

 

This mighty oak, said to be over 200 years old, is at the top of a steep incline, stretching its limbs far out into a canopy.  It is a powerful sight to come upon, and never ceases to startle me with its majesty.

Autumn is also bringing an end to the garden.  My sweet red peppers have been prolific, and I still have some sitting indoors in the sun, reddening.  

Roasted red peppers/onions.

Heavily oil (olive oil) a baking dish, cut up peppers, onions, garlic and in this case an eggplant as well...(lots of onion and garlic), and salt/pepper to taste.  Roast in 375 degree oven for a couple of hours.  This is great as a side dish, served over toasted crusty bread, or mixed with Italian sausage.

 

 My kale is heartily growing along, and it, too, is prolific.  I picked nearly 6 pounds of it this morning.  De-stemmed it, cut it up...

and it filled to overflowing, this large stainless steel bowl.

I then brought a kettle of water to a boil, blanched the kale for 2 minutes, cooled it, and was able to freeze 6 bags.  

Come the cold of winter, this kale sauteed with onion, garlic, and Italian sausage, with the last 15 minute addition of cut up potatoes, is probably my second favorite meal (homemade pizza being my first.)

Brussels sprouts are still doing well, and I also picked plenty of them today.  We will have maple-glazed Brussels sprouts later this week.

As much as I love fall, it also presents an overwhelming clean-up time.  The garden clean up seems far more intensive and demanding than planting time.  Perhaps it is just because by this time, it is all old news????

AUTUMN 2012

I think that this autumn is by far the most beautiful in my memory.  I know there are others who feel the same, and everyone is trying to articulate what feelings are being evoked by such magnificence.

The colors are so intense that I feel a bit exhausted, at times, contemplating them. 

The expression 'exquisite pain' comes to mind, as this beauty slams into one with great force.

It burns itself into you...

and even though it is almost too much to take, we keep on looking and loving and entering it.

Many, many years ago I found a poem by Bliss Carmen (1861-1929) that came pretty close to capturing the beauty of autumn...he could have written this in regards to fall this year.  There are lines in this poem that I covet, and wish I had penned.

A Vagabond Song

There is something in the autumn that is native to my blood-

Touch of manner, hint of mood; 

And my heart is like a rhyme,

With the yellow and the purple and the crimson keeping time.

The scarlet of the maples can shake me like a cry

Of bugles going by.

And my lonely spirit thrills

To see the frosty asters like a smoke upon the hills.

There is something in October sets the gypsy blood astir;

We must rise and follow her,

When from every hill of flame

She calls and calls each vagabond by name. 

Bliss Carmen

Autumn has been calling me especially hard this year, and I have wanted to articulate my feelings in words...darn that such lines like 'there is something in the autumn that is native to my blood' are already taken.  Even knowing that Bliss Carmen has told the story so well, I have attempted myself....a work in progress. 

AUTUMN 2012

Color pushes the limits

this year

almost, though not quite

violently.

The hills, a riot of flame,

push me, too,

singeing my cheeks...

and for a moment

I am aflame...

I am but a leaf

dazzling myself

and the world...

while the blood

roils and tumbles

snapping and sparking me

to the edge of attention

where, on this brink,

I burst into the

magnificence.

Joanne Adragna Shird